How can he trust you with more?

Luke 16:10-11 KJV
He that is faithful in that which is least is faithful also in much: and he that is unjust in the least is unjust also in much. [11] If therefore ye have not been faithful in the unrighteous mammon, who will commit to your trust the true riches ?

Whooooo baby! I don’t know if Daddy was talking just to me specifically but I know he was talking to a lot of people. If you take offense, you’re probably one of those people. See! A lot of us are crying out to God for him to send us. We’re telling him that we’re ready, but the truth is…we are not. Let me tell you why and it could be the smallest little thing, but even the little things matter in the bigger scheme of things.

We heard from the prophetic voices, at the beginning of the plandemic, that we should be getting out houses in order. That was meant figuratively and literally. Figuratively meaning get your home in order; remove and dispose of things that you no longer need, things that will not serve you in your next. Literally meaning, get your physical home, your body, in order. Begin the fasts, the diets, exercise, change your eating habits, commit your body to the Lord, subjugate your flesh, stop the bad habits that are/were ruining, damaging, and defiling your physical body (the place where the Holy Spirit dwells). A lot of us have not done it or we started and never finished. I fall into the second category. I started, but I haven’t finished yet I’m telling the Lord that I hate it here and I’m ready to move. You can’t move when you have extra stuff that you don’t need. I just did a tiktok about the exodus of the children of Israel talking about how during the last plague of Egypt not only did the Lord tell them to put blood on the door frame, but he told them to eat the passover lamb ready to travel. What does that mean? It meant clothes and shoes on, staff in hand (whatever you could carry). I keep hearing the words from Eryka Badu’s song bag lady. She says, pack light …you can’t hurry up cuz you got too much stuff. Baby! It’s time to let stuff go.

The world is crazy right now with wars and rumors of wars, the financial system is breaking down, the government is taking away our God given freedom, we are being lied to on every front, the enemy has waged all out war on the children of God. We don’t have time to be worried about material possessions. We have to be like the children of Israel and be ready to move at a moments notice to wherever it is Daddy wants us to go. We have to stop trying to save people that don’t want to be saved, meaning stop risking your soul salvation not doing what it is you know you should be doing because you don’t want to leave anyone behind. We are not saviors. If you planted the seed, the the Father do the rest. Just like Pharaoh, the Lord gave pharaoh 10 opportunities to repent, acknowledge him, and release his children. He gives us all multiple time, hundreds upon thousands of times to repent and turn to him because he is merciful, but he will only save those that turn to him. They’ve been warned and I can say that because I’ve had to watch it happen to people I know. It doesn’t seem fair and it hurts, but they were warned. There is nothing else you can do, because if you keep trying to go back and save them, you will become just like them and receive the same punishment.

Think about it. The angels told Lot and his family not to turn around and look back when they were escaping Sodom and Gomorra and they were told what would happen. Lot’s wife still turned around and looked and received the exact punishment the angels had warned them of, now what would have happened if Lot had turned around to look at his wife, he also would have turned into a pillar of salt. His children that laughed at him and stayed behind all perished, they were warned.

Y’all, it’s time to prepare. It’s time to get ready for whatever Daddy has for our next. Daddy ain’t playing. We have to be obedient to a fault. We can’t overlook the bits and pieces we don’t want to hear or do or we will be left behind, but as always, the choice is yours.

Can you walk like Jesus?

Hebrews 2:17 KJV
Wherefore in all things it behoved him to be made like unto his brethren, that he might be a merciful and faithful high priest in things pertaining to God, to make reconciliation for the sins of the people.

It is so crazy how Daddy talks to me. I’ve been quiet because I feel like I’m a failure, like something I did or didn’t do is the reason my whole family is going through even though he told me the reason why. Being someone whose whole identity was rooted in being independent and self-sufficient, sitting still and not being able to handle stuff is difficult. I have good days and I have bad days. I have to kill my flesh or die to self daily and some days I can’t do it, especially alone. Knowing the promises and the blessing Daddy has promised me doesn’t help either. I desire the things he promised. I desire to do what he said I would, but waiting is difficult.

However, what he told me today was so profound. Maybe it was just me, but I thought I’d share in case anyone else is struggling in the season they’re in. Everything Jesus experienced here on earth, in his lifetime, was written down to be an witness and example for how we should respond to different situations and to show us how to live. His life proved that our experiences are to be used to help others as examples of how to overcome and how to live righteously loving not our lives unto death for the Kingdom and because we love the Lord.

Does that make sense? It’s not just about us following the ten commandments, being good people, or good “christians”. The scriptures says that it was his duty to come to earth like us (his brethren) so that he could understand our sufferings and our temptations so he could be a merciful Savior that reconciled us back to Daddy. Whatever your situation, God has it covered. There is nothing to fear of worry about. You were built to outlast the storm because there are people waiting to hear your story. We are truly supposed to walk and live like Jesus. Be an example without fear of the world. That’s what we are called to do.

Put down your armor

This line came from a show that I was watching on Netflix. It’s funny how the Lord can use anything and anyone to speak to us. As soon as I heard this line, the Holy Spirit started speaking.

He told me that this season that I’ve been in is for my good. I isolated you so you could lay down your armor. You have been so use to being your own savior, guarding against any and everything, even me. You had become so use to relying on yourself, though you still believed in me, you refused to trust me enough to surrender your life to me. I had to isolate you to remove all threats, everything that use to attack you, everything and everyone that took your attention away from me. I had to completely set you apart so you could only rely on me. So you could only see me. So you could only love me.

I know it’s hard and it’s difficult to understand my ways sometimes, but what I have placed in you needs to come out and it could not come out in the mindset you had previously. I had to do a heart and mind reset on you. Let me in. Let me do the work, you’re almost there. It’s almost done. Put down your armor and take up mine.

So, Y’all I was almost in tears. I do still have my armor on, just not for the same reasons as before. Now I wear it so I don’t feel what I’m going through. I’m afraid that if I take it off, I’ll be overwhelmed by emotions that I would rather not feel. Battling depression and anxiety is hard and if I take this armor off, I’m afraid I’ll be consumed. I’m afraid that I‘ll give in to that voice that says I don’t want to be here anymore because it’s too much and it’s too hard. I’m afraid that the fear I feel skirting around the edges of my subconscience will overflow into my conscious/ waking thoughts and have me spiral out of control. It’s a choice for me whether I let my mental health nose dive. With my armor, I can keep all the crazies away. I’m afraid if I remove my armor, I will no longer be me. Does that make sense? Like I know who is waiting for me when or if I break down. He’s been hunting me my whole life and I have been victorious thus far, but I get it. I absolutely understand what Daddy wants and needs from me.

However, if I remove my armor while I am in isolation, there is no one that will come and see about me. If I remove my armor and it’s too much for me, who will bring me back? I’ve had this happen one other time and instead of coming to get me, they watched me spiral out of control, talked about me behind my back, and kicked me while I was down. Right now I don’t even have anyone to do that. I feel like he has me so utterly isolated that if I passed away, it would take days for anyone to even realize it. That is the reality of my isolation and I understand the reasons why, but I haven’t been able to trust Daddy to come and save me in a timely manner. I’ve been isolated for three years; hoping and wishing and praying and I’m still in the same place. If I remove my armor, how long will it take for him to send help? This is the reality of a believer, a “chosen one” training for the special forces. We have to go through some of the roughest stuff. It’s hard as hell and I want to give up more times than I can count. I lay it at his feet one minute and the next minute, somehow I’m carrying it again. But God!! He is so patient and loving. He forgives me every time and he continues to wait for me, but I know time is running out.

I know that I am not alone in this feeling. I know that I am not alone in the extreme trying of our faith. We have to trust him and let him do the work in us. We can not save ourselves and we can not work at our full potential and purpose until the work in us is complete. As much as I’m afraid to remove my armor, I’m excited for what’s to come. Pray for me.

His promises are yes and amen when you trust him

Jeremiah 17:7-8 KJV
Blessed is the man that trusteth in the Lord, and whose hope the Lord is. [8] For he shall be as a tree planted by the waters, and that spreadeth out her roots by the river, and shall not see when heat cometh, but her leaf shall be green; and shall not be careful in the year of drought, neither shall cease from yielding fruit.

We serve an intentional God. Nothing that happens in our lives is coincidence or a mistake. Everyone we encounter and every experience we have has purpose. How we interpret them is what makes the difference. I had to learn that the hard way, but that’s not what this post is abut today. Yesterday was a little rough for me. I read the scripture of the day and was preparing to write my blog post, to share on IG and Fb, so I could make my TikTok, but my heart wasn’t in it. I tired several times to pray and ask the Lord to give me whatever he wanted me to share with his children and it would not come out right. I could not articulate what it was I was feeling in my spirit. I spent the whole day feeling some kind of way that I still can not explain. Then praise God, today it was time to prepare my bullet journal for March. Every year I choose or I should say the Lord gives me a word that will describe the upcoming year. This year it is TRUST. Along with the word for the year, I go and find scriptures for each month pertaining to that word. This month, which is my birthday month, I chose the above scripture. When I read it all I could do was laugh. I had no idea what I would be going through three months into the new year in November or December when I choose this scripture for this month, but Daddy knew.

I don’t like where I am in life. Hell, I haven’t liked most of the states of my life and I know the word says despise not small beginnings, but I feel like my entire life I’ve been in survival mode, always praying for a breakthrough so my children and I could thrive. My kids are grown now and I watch them as they are walking the same path as me, but God had to explain it to me. He was like, it’s not survival mode. It has always been me just trying to get you to depend on me. I know you lost faith in mankind because of what you’ve been through. I know you felt like I had abandoned you during the most heartbreaking parts of your life, but I was right there. I know that everyone you loved betrayed you or just used you and never reciprocated the love you gave. So I know why you have trust issues and don’t believe in love and would rather depend on yourself, but I am here. I always have been, just waiting for you to see me. Waiting for you to look back at me instead of trying to find what you needed most, in man. I shed blood for you. I gave up my life so that I could be everything to you. So, you could live and be happy, depending on me. Relying on me like a child should depend on their parent. Living carefree, knowing that I am handling it all. I’m just waiting for my children to give it all to me. They were not built to carry these weights. They were not created to be there own saviors. Turn to me, give it to me and all the things you asked for, all the things you seek will be added unto you. You have survived this long because of my grace and that mustard seed of faith you have planted in your heart. I have so much in store for you. So much I want to show you and give to you before I come again. Just Trust me.

Y’all why, as I’m writing this, is Lauren Daigle’s song Once and for All is playing.

God I give You all I can today
These scattered ashes that I hid away
I lay them all at Your feet
From the corners of my deepest shame
The empty places where I’ve worn Your name
Show me the love I say I believe
Oh Help me to lay it down
Oh Lord I lay it down
Oh let this be where I die
My lord with thee crucified
Be lifted high as my Kingdom’s fall
Once and for all, once and for all
There is victory in my Saviors loss
And In the crimson flowing from the cross
Pour over me, pour over me yes
Oh let this be where I die
My lord with thee crucified
Be lifted high as my Kingdom’s fall
Once and for all, once and for all
Oh Lord I lay it down
Oh Lord I lay it down
Help me to lay it down
Oh Lord I lay it down
Oh let this be where I die
My Lord with thee crucified
Be lifted high as my Kingdom’s fall
Once and for all
Once and for all
Oh once and for all
Once and for all

You can’t tell me Daddy is not intentional and that he doesn’t care about us. You think you’re waiting on him when in fact, he’s waiting for you. It’s time to choose fam. Where will you stand? Whose side are you choosing?