You can’t decide your calling, it was preordained by GOD

Matthew 25:44-45 KJV
Then shall they also answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee? [45] Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me.

It’s funny, but not really, how some people view doing the work of the Lord. Some people think it’s just about holding a title and serving in the church. Other people think I’ll just be a good person help out where I can. Then there are those who are out in the trenches, on the streets. Everyone has their place and their calling, but it’s not for us to decide what it is that we do in this life that is pleasing to God. Does that make sense? He gave us all gifts and talents and we’ve all had experiences that were meant to lead us to our callings. A lot of us ignore the calling because we want to do what we want to do. A lot of us look down on people who are doing the work because they don’t look like what we think they should look like. We condemn people because they aren’t moving the way we think they should move. Some of us are so attached to the world and thinking and moving like the world that we can’t even see or comprehend what God is doing and telling us or those around us.

It’s one thing to do things out of the goodness of your heart. That is commendable, however, most of the time that kindness goes sour and becomes pride. It’s another thing to do it because that’s what we are supposed to do and not expect anything from it. Every day some of us walk past the homeless. Some are drug addicts or alcoholics, some are prostitutes and some just fell on hard times and don’t know how to get back up. We walk past them and prejudge them. We turn our noses up at them and we refuse to be a blessing to them because “if I give them money, I know they’re just going to drink it or smoke it up.” You know how we do, but are they not also children of God. Haven’t we all done things that were not pleasing to him? Have we all not had encounters with him or the people he sent to save us from ourselves? How then can we walk past his children who are hurting and lost and pass judgment? How can we, being children of the Most High, not show them the love of Christ who looked past all of our flaws and saved us? How can we help people and then brag about it or throw it in people’s faces? How quickly we forget when we needed help or when we were at our lowest. God sees everything and he keeps a record. Jesus is coming soon. Are you on your post? Are you doing what God intended for you to do or are you doing what you want to do or are you making excuses about not doing anything at all? It’s time to choose. Choose wisely, because the things of this world will not last, but the Kingdom of God will stand forever.

It’s ok to let someone in

Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 KJV
Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour. [10] For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up.

Let me tell y’all, lol. I do not want to keep having these types of messages. If you’ve been following me for any length of time, you know that I am single. At almost 50 years old, I’ve never been married. Yet, the Lord made a point to let me know that I would be married. That he had set me apart, to be married to a minister. I didn’t want to be married at all if I’m being honest. I had been let down by men my whole life and I had no need for them. Anything I wanted, I would and could get it myself. The only good thing that came from being with a man was my beautiful children. So, I guess they had their place, lol. I had made up in my mind that I was never getting married. That I would be forever single. I had no desire to have to be accountable to or for another person outside of myself and my children.

This decision had consequences. I had to do a lot of tough stuff on my own. I had to raise my boys alone. I had to take care of my whole family by myself. I had to carry a weight I was never meant to carry. All because I believed the lies of the enemy and let my past dictate every decision. Every hurt, injustice, disappointment, and heartbreak was the catalyst for each decision I made, good or bad. We don’t realize that giving in to the lies of the enemy, believing the foolishness he tells us, and living by the deceit hurts us more. More than anything anyone else could hurt us. I had to learn that the hard way and while I didn’t want to carry the weight alone, I was too proud to admit it to anyone. Even if everyone knew and just pretended they didn’t and were waiting for me to ask for help or remotely look like I couldn’t handle it. If I was drowning and there were people on the shore I would have rather drown than ask for help. That is how bad people had hurt me and how much pride I carried.

Again, I didn’t want to carry all of that alone, but if I’m being honest, my expectations for the one I would allow to help me were probably unrealistic. Ask anyone that was raped or molested as a child. We want people to be mind readers. We wanted people to be God; all-knowing. We wanted people to see us. We wanted people to know what we needed without us having to say a word. I wanted the man that I would spend my life with to dote on me and spoil me like the little girl in me longed for. I wanted him to notice everything about me, to know me inside and out, and could recognize when I was not myself or something was wrong. See, unrealistic. I wanted the type of husband you only see in Hallmark movies, but a man of God, lol. I can laugh now at the absurdity of it all. No one would have ever measured up to the standards I had set. He literally would have had to be God, because he also had to be able to love me despite what I’d been through and what I put myself through and only God could love someone as broken as me unconditionally.

So, now, all these years later the Lord in all his infinite wisdom and comedic flair wishes that I should have a husband. It took years for me to even remotely come close to accepting that. I had the plan for my life mapped out and a husband was not included in that plan. Not after I turned 45 anyway. It took me all these years to realize and accept what this passage of scripture means, especially in regards to ministry and marriage. All the ways I was afraid someone would/ could let me down come to mind when I read this and it gives me anxiety….still. Opening up to someone has never been my strong suit. Letting someone in, being that close to someone terrifies me, but I know that my marriage is destined for great things. I know the weight the Lord has placed on this union and the lives it will affect. One minute I’m excited, the next minute I am petrified. Who is this man the Lord has chosen for me? How can anyone love someone like me? Have I changed enough to truly be worthy of this gift? I don’t know and still I wait.

My marriage isn’t just about me if it really is at all. When it comes to fruition I pray that it does what God ordained it to do. That I do not get in the way of it’s mission. That I don’t somehow derail it out of fear or disobedience. We were never meant to walk this life alone. If you are struggling to release the spirit of independence or fear. If you struggle with the idea of surrendering and allowing someone else to take the reigns. Just know, you are not alone and it is one of the best gifts God can give his daughters. Put the weights down, you’ve proven to the world how strong you are. It’s time to let her go, she served her purpose. It’s time to become who God intended you to be. Jesus is coming soon. Walk in who God says you are, not who the world made you.

It’s all coming to light

Luke 14:11 KJV
For whosoever exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.

We are watching history in the making. Not that this is the first time it’s happening, but it’s the first time in my lifetime that I’m seeing such a mass dethroning of the elites. I have been warning people for years about the corrupt government and media that was aiming for our children and everyone thought that I was doing too much. The truth is being exposed. How their aim has always been for our children, the purest and most innocent of the human race. That the music they produced to the television shows all had/ have subliminal messages in them to plant seeds of all types of immorality into our children. Now, we are watching the conspiracy theories become the truth no one was willing to accept and of course, there will be some that still won’t believe, but what can you do. You can lead a horse to water and all. People are waking up to the reality that we as believers have always known and have been praying against. It’s a hard pill to swallow when you’ve been brainwashed your whole life to believe a certain way to then have the bandaid ripped off, it can be a bit difficult to handle. But God!

He forewarned us about what would happen. Now is the time for his people to go out and take the land. People are lost and hurting and don’t know where to turn or who to believe. Jesus is still the only way. He is the way, the truth, and the life. No one can get to the Father except through him. We have to hit the streets and every corner of our assigned space to tell people about Jesus Christ. It is time for a great harvest, we just need the workers, because there are so many who need to hear the truth like they’ve never heard it before. There ae so many that need to hear the truth period. They are just waiting for us to get on our post and do what we were called to do. There is no more time to waste. Jesus is coming soon. There is going to be a great revival and I can’t wait!

You were never last

Matthew 19:29-30 KJV
And every one that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my name’s sake, shall receive an hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life. [30] But many that are first shall be last; and the last shall be first.

Oh boy!! I needed this! Y’all don’t know how bad I needed this. I promise I don’t know how the disciples endured. It’s too much. To be called to such a great calling is mentally, physically, and spiritually draining. Crying and praying and trying to study to stay focused, reading the word is tiring. Being patient is tiring, lol. Wanting to save everyone that you held dear is tiring. Not everyone wants to go. Not everyone can handle what is coming or even care. A lot of people, especially since 2020, just want life to go back to normal and it will never be normal again. Not for nonbelievers and believers alike. The word warns us in Matthew 10:35-49, ³⁵ For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law. ³⁶ And a man’s foes shall be they of his own household. ³⁷ He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. ³⁸ And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me. ³⁹ He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it.

I remember as a child, when we found out that my great-grandmother had cancer I was told all I could do was pray and make her comfortable. I remember my prayers were always that I would see my whole family in heaven. That’s what I had been taught; pray for your family and I’ve held on to that, but as I’ve gotten older I’ve come to realize that everyone does not want what you want. don’t understand what you understand, or care about what you care about. Including family. It used to baffle me when we would sing I’m On My Way to the Canaan Land and one of the verses said, If mama don’t go, won’t hinder me…and I was distraught like why wouldn’t my mother be going? So, as a child, my prayers became more fierce in that area. I couldn’t imagine not seeing all of my family in heaven when Jesus comes again. I guess I’ve held on to that because I have stayed in situations with family I have endured situations for family. I have fought hard to try to keep everyone together and on the same page, nobody realizes or appreciates it, but that’s how I spent my life and I’ve been praying heaven down for some of them. Only to realize that not all of them want to go. Having to realize that I can’t save everyone. There is a point in the bible when the Lord tells the prophet not to pray for those people because it will do no good. They won’t understand until they suffer my wrath and he ain’t listening. That is where God is with some of our families and friends and there is nothing else we can do. We can’t save everybody, but those of us that tried; those of us who have endured and pressed in and prayed will be rewarded.

For everything you lost, it will be returned. For every injustice, God will repay. For every plot and plan, for every time they allowed the enemy to use them, the Lord will return it to them. It’s nothing to brag or boast or even be happy about, but God is about to change some circumstances around. The ones that have been looked down on and ridiculed have found favor in the eyes of the Lord and will be blessed. He is dropping blessings that no man can take credit for. He is elevating the least likely suspects because people counted them out. Those who held on until the end and did not conform to the world, are about to be catapulted to the front. Your day of redemption and restoration is near. Just hold on.

Only God Will Do

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Matthew 28:5-7 KJV
And the angel answered and said unto the women, Fear not ye: for I know that ye seek Jesus, which was crucified. [6] He is not here: for he is risen, as he said. Come, see the place where the Lord lay. [7] And go quickly, and tell his disciples that he is risen from the dead; and, behold, he goeth before you into Galilee; there shall ye see him: lo, I have told you.

I know this is supposed to be about Easter, but the message I got from it as soon as I read it had nothing to do with Easter and everything to do with our lives and how we live them. Let me explain. Before most of us come into the Knowledge of Christ, we are just out here trying to figure it out. RIght? Living and trying to cope with traumas. Trying to navigate through life with our limited resources and knowledge. We fall a million times. We suffer multiple setbacks. We fall into some bad habits. Meet the wrong people. Get heartbroken and/ or betrayed. We look for things to fill the voids that life has left. We insert worldly things that will only bring us temporary pleasure and we keep trying to plug things into this God-sized hole that was only meant for God.

When someone introduces you to Christ, they are the angel or like the angel. Come and see where Jesus died. Come and see where he sacrificed himself for you and where he rose from the dead. He is in none of the places you’ve been searching. He’s been waiting for you and once that hole is filled with the Holy Spirit the mantle is now passed on to you to go and tell others about the goodness of the Lord and everything he’s done for you. Hallelujah! After you taste and see that the Lord is good, you can’t keep it to yourself, you have to go and tell someone else. You now have to walk out what you’ve learned, reflect the one who saved you, and teach what you’ve been taught. Simple as that. Everything after that has nothing to do with you. Once you say I do, God will take care of everything else. That is why he said to cast your cares on him. When you pick up your cross to walk out your purpose, God’s got you. There will be lessons to learn along the way. There will be painful moments and things we don’t understand, but God knows and he wants us to trust him. Lean not unto our own understanding, because we’ll never get far that way. God is the great I Am, the Alpha and Omega, the Author and Finisher of our faith. We have to know that he loves us and everything he does is for our good and his glory whether we understand it or not. Do the work and he’ll take care of the rest. Jesus is coming soon. There is plenty of work to be done.

What is there to be ashamed of?

Romans 1:16-17 KJV
For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek. [17] For therein is the righteousness of God revealed from faith to faith: as it is written, The just shall live by faith.

It’s said that this is the main principle of Romans. That if you understand this, you can understand all of Romans and I won’t lie; when I first tried to read Romans because you know they say it should be one of the first books you read, it used to confuse me. It was like Paul was speaking in riddles. I had to rely heavily on other translations and commentaries to get the full understanding, but if you ask me to try and explain it to someone…I will quickly tell you that is not my calling, lol. Because I normally pick up on stuff easily, by the grace of God, even reading the KJV, but Romans was one of those that I had to read and reread just to get an understanding. This part, I get.

I am not ashamed of the Gospel or the God I serve, even when the things that I do or have to endure look crazy to the people around me. I am not ashamed because I know where I should be at his moment. Where I could have been had he not saved me. So, I’m not offended when people call me crazy. I laugh, because sometimes I think I am too, but you have to be some type of crazy to believe wholeheartedly in a God you’ve never seen. To believe that he is real and will keep his promises. Especially when you’ve been through as much stuff as I have. I know it looks absolutely insane, because what good, loving father allows his kids to suffer at the hands of monsters? I get it. I used to ask that question myself. But God! Then he revealed himself to me in a way I had never seen before. When I truly started seeking him for myself and not through the lens of religion and self-righteousness, but truly seeking him with childlike awe and deep desperation for the truth…that’s when he revealed his heart to me. His heart for me. That is why, to this day, Jeremiah 29:11 remains one of if not my favorite scripture.

His plan for me is that I be reconciled to him. That I can go home to be with him when Jesus comes again, but in order to do that, the world has to be stripped from my heart and my soul. All the things that I should have never known or experienced have to be purged from my spirit. All of the demons/ spirits that I have come in covenant with and in contact with have to be banished and broken. I have to become who he originally intended me to be. If that requires heartbreak, then that is what I must endure. Jesus’ heart broke for his people. He wept when Lazarus died. God is not pleased with the suffering of his children. So, I bear the heartache with him. If it requires loving my friends and family despite the demons they carry, then love them I will. Jesus loved Judas, despite knowing his intentions. Judas still ate at the last supper, even though he was about to betray Jesus. Besides, I also learned that we suffer not just for ourselves, but for others who have or will encounter the same tests and trials so I can assist them in growing and healing from them. The children of Israel did not suffer slavery and the wilderness and allllllll of the many times they were invaded, captured, and scattered to the ends of the earth. It was also for an example to us some 2000+ years later. Abraham and Sarah did not have to deal with baby mama drama and bearing children in their old age for nothing. It was to show us what happens when we interfere with God’s plan, but how faithful he is to keep his word even when we disobey. In each story as well, there is a thread of hope. There was a blessing for their faithfulness. Testifying to his goodness when we choose to love him and obey him.

His mercy is so great that it extended not only to the Jews, his chosen but to the Gentiles as well. Those of us who would rather have worshiped ourselves and our own creations than to give honor and glory to the creator of it all. He opened the door through the death of his son so that we could become part of the family again. So, no, I am not ashamed of the Gospel. I (try to) walk by faith and not by sight. It’s not always easy, but I always have to think back to where he brought me from and then I’m good. It straightens me right out because I do not want to go back. As much fun as I thought I was having, it is not worth me going to hell. Period. Jesus is returning soon. It’s time to make a choice.

Only those with eyes to see will see

Isaiah 8:12-13 NIV
“Do not call conspiracy everything this people calls a conspiracy; do not fear what they fear, and do not dread it. [13] The LORD Almighty is the one you are to regard as holy, he is the one you are to fear, he is the one you are to dread.

I could not pass this up because it is one of those right now words. I couldn’t believe it when I read it, so I had to share. Backstory, Isaiah is yet another prophet called to warn the children of Israel that God’s judgment is about to be upon them. But God is so mad, almost nothing will soothe his anger. God knew the only way the children of Israel would learn is if they were punished. Like little children, with every new king or every generation, a new sin was introduced that threw them off course, enraged God, and made them turn away from God and it all started with the first group that went into the promised land who were disobedient. It’s amazing how stuff from our grandparents and parents can still be affecting our lives today.

Are we not in the same predicament right now in 2024? God is so angry and the warnings have gone out. Prophets are being persecuted for telling the truth to stiffnecked people who only want to hear feel-good messages that promise wealth and prosperity and love. Our government (kings) have been in bed with the devil from the beginning slowly and quite calculatingly causing our demise. If not of our own doing, also by the wrath of God. We’re about to get it from both ends. Everything is not a conspiracy because you didn’t know about it. There is nothing new under the sun. The enemy has done this over and over to wipe out God’s children and we fall into the seductive web of lies he set for us every time.

He uses fear to control us. All of the things we thought we would never see on this land have happened in our lifetime and there are so many people who still don’t want to see or believe it. They have been so brainwashed by the enemy, sedated by watered-down sermons preached from the pulpits, and desensitized by news and media outlets, movies and tv. None of the pew warmers are ready for what is about to go down, because they have been more worried about what office they’ll hold and title they can claim than the soul salvation of their brothers and sisters. Now seeing revelation unfold people are becoming fearful. We’re about to see men’s hearts fail from fear. Even the elect will be deceived, because they are prideful and think they know everything and that they still have time or that they have it all figured out and they’re good, but they will soon find out that he will not acknowledge them or their works. It’s time to repent and get on your post. Walk in your calling. Help save your brothers and sisters before Jesus comes again because the time is quickly upon us. Jesus is coming soon. Whether you like it or not. Whether you’re ready or not. He’s on his way. What will you be doing when he comes?

Our choices affect everyone around us

Colossians 3:18-21 KJV
Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as it is fit in the Lord. [19] Husbands, love your wives, and be not bitter against them. [20] Children, obey your parents in all things: for this is well pleasing unto the Lord. [21] Fathers, provoke not your children to anger, lest they be discouraged.

I don’t know why this had to pop up today of all days but let’s talk about it. This should be the family dynamic, but the enemy has poisoned the sanctity of marriage and the atomic family. It’s so wild if you ever stop and think about how far in advance the enemy planned for it all to come out the way it did today. How much stuff he has changed and manipulated over thousands of years for us to end up in the predicament we are in today. It is mind-boggling. The even crazier part is that it all boils down to obedience. Can you be obedient?

Wives submit yourselves unto your own husbands. Once a woman leaves her family she is now his family. To live peaceably they must agree that he is the head and she is the helpmeet. Not that she wears the pants and runs everything. That is out of order. It should be understood that loud talking your husband in front of people, making him look weak or incompetent is a direct reflection of your upbringing and your relationship with Christ. If you have to be in control and you have to have the last word and you want to run everything including your mouth, you are out of order and you have no relationship with Christ. You do not understand his heart or the Word. Just like God is the head. We can’t do anything apart from him. We have to submit our will to him and let him lead. Plain and simple. When we do things in our own strength it will never be as good as God intended it. We will just receive the accolades of man and a puffed up heart. Everybody wants to be the Proverbs 31 woman but isn’t ready to lay down the Jezebel spirit. Have mercy.

Husbands, love your wives. In Ephesians 5:25 the word says, Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her. You would never mistreat yourself. Well some people would, but for the most part humans are innately all about self-preservation. We are gonna live one way or the other unless we’ve lost hope. When you get married, now you have someone else you must protect. Someone else that you must feed and make sure is healthy spiritually and physically. Do not treat her bad. This is why it is imperative that we wait for God to present our spouse to us when we are ready. If we have not healed from past traumas. If we have not unlearned certain behaviors and ways of thinking. If we have not learned to forgive we are unworthy of the gift of a spouse, because you will mistreat them. If you pray for a God-fearing husband or wife and you only have the appearance of godliness, what do you think you will do to that person’s spirit over time. You will wear them down and drown their light. That is a tactic of the enemy against God’s children. He feeds your emotions and feeds you lies. He covers up the red flags with the butterflies and rose-covered glasses so you will enter into a covenant with him that gives him legal access, that gives him the authority, legally to destroy you. I hope someone caught that.

Children are to obey their parents. That goes for us as adults. We are to obey our Father who is in heaven. We are never too grown to get a whoopin’ for disobedience or defiance. But as a child, that is where we learn obedience and humbleness and honesty and the fear of the Lord. The quicker you teach your children these things the easier it will be for them to obey God. My childhood was a mess. My parents were divorced and there was no one to teach me anything really. Moms was an alcholic and dad was an absentee, so I struggled listening to the Father for a long time. The same resentment I had toward my parents I had for God for allowing all the crap that happened to me to transpire. I had to unlearn it and forgive God in my heart so I could truly give my life and my heart to him. So that I could fully surrender to him, because despite all that I had been through, he preserved my life. There were several times I should have been dead but he kept me and he didn’t have to.

Fathers do not provoke your children to anger….we could look at that from so many angles. Fathers leave lasting impressions on their children when they are in the home or not. A child that sees his father beat his mom will learn to be abusive or he could become a killer by killing their own father. A father who is a cheater is teaching that child to break the sacred covenant of marriage thus teaching them to be promiscuous. A father who claims to be Christian but is an alcoholic gambler. That child now wants nothing to do with God because their father is corrupt and a hypocrite. We are to teach our children the way in which they should go so even if they stray they will return. Our children watch and absorb everything we do. Harsh words, favoritism, mistreatment, abuse; all of that impacts a child and could cause them to stray and not follow Christ. I learned that the hard way, lol.

Our marriage is to bear witness to the goodness of God. People are watching. They want to know what is so good about accepting a spouse from God (because God choosing your spouse does not take away your free will, you still have the option to reject them) because they feel like they won’t get what they want when they’ve forgotten what they want has always leaves them heartbroken and spiritually drained. Our marriages (I’m claiming it in the name of Jesus). have purpose. Through our marriages, we teach people how to treat their spouse, how to raise God-fearing, healthy children. Marriage is a ministry. I know God told me that my ministry is connected to my husband. I must be married for it to fully come to fruition. Didn’t want to hear it, but I get it. The spirit of independence that was heavy on me would never have gotten married, would have never thought to get married at all otherwise. Now even at my big ole age, I am still expecting God to keep his promise. I want to do everything that he has for me to do and if that means I must be married then so be it.

All in all our roles in the atomic family are governed by obedience. God laid down the rules, will you obey or will you follow the rules the enemy imposed on the world? How full of pride we must be to disregard God’s word to follow our own desires and the world. It will only lead to destruction. I’m telling you. Everything you acquired on your own, in your own strength, will crumble to nothing if God is not the head. If you are not following the will of God but the lies of the enemy it will all come to naught. It’s a choice. God has given us free will. You can do whatever you want, but he has warned what happens when you do. You will not enter the gates of heaven. He also tells us what happens when we follow him. The choice is yours.

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2

For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of the LORD, he hath also rejected thee from being king. 1 Samuel 15:23

He will send the one

Matthew 18:19-20 KJV
Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven. [20] For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.

There is a great debate about what this passage of scripture is actually referring to. Just like the enemy to find all of the pettiest stuff for us to argue about. Right? Keep the flames of internal strife stoked so we don’t pay attention to what’s really going on in the world and so the kingdom can’t advance. That’s the whole reason he gave man the idea of denominations. Can two walk together, except they be agreed? (Amos 3:3) If we can’t agree on the things of God, we definitely can’t advance the kingdom. Not properly anyway.

So, this passage of scripture is proceeded by the way in which we are to deal with our brothers and sisters who trespass against us. It says we should go to them and talk it out. If that doesn’t work, take witnesses. If that doesn’t work take them before the church and if that doesn’t work leave them alone. Don’t associate with them. Avoid them. However, if they do listen then you’ve gained a brother. After all of this it says if two shall agree ANYTHING that they ask, it shall be done. So while, yes this is referring to the redeeming of a brother or sister who has done some offense to you, he reminds us that when we stand together and agree, God will grant our requests.

It’s not to take away from how we should handle our brothers and sisters in a loving and fair way, but I don’t believe where this was placed was a coincidence. I don’t believe that it only refers to the solving of disputes between brethren. We know that there is something special about the number 2. The animals were taken 2×2 to the ark. The disciples were sent out 2×2. Marriage is reserved for two people. Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour. (Ecclesiastes 4:9) That is why the Lord gave Adam, Eve. It is not good for man to be alone. We need accountability and someone to battle against the enemy with. Someone to stand in agreement with us in prayer and supplication before the throne. Where two stand and agree, God will hear from heaven and if it is beneficial for your purpose and his Glory, it will be done. That’s the part people forget to mention. God doesn’t just answer all of our prayers because someone is praying and agreeing with us. There has to be a benefit for you and that he will get the glory.

This dynamic of two is a means of protection and accountability. It is not to be taken lightly. Marriage is not to be taken lightly. Friendships are not to be taken lightly. Business partnerships are not to be taken lightly. If either of the two involved goes astray, there could be disastrous consequences for both. So they must be on one accord. They must not be unequally yoked. They must have the same destination and goals in mind. Otherwise, that’s how things go left. That’s why we must pray for divine connections and not just jump into stuff leaning on our own understanding. Desperation and impatience will cause us to make detrimental decisions. It’s always best to wait for God. His timing is perfect and it’s always the way he originally intended. Like the promised land. It was full of everything they needed to thrive. They just had to do the work to maintain it and remain obedient. But he gave us free will. We still have the choice to do it our own way or wait for his perfect will. The choice is yours. What will you choose?

Count it ALL joy

1 Thessalonians 5:18 KJV
In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.

I suggest rereading 1 Thessalonians when you get a chance. It is definitely a word for right now. Usually, I would have no problem recapping the chapter, but I feel the need to stay right here with this verse alone. It is definitely for me first. It is a reminder to me that no matter what I’m going through to count it all joy. Why is this for me right now? Because I am still not in the best of circumstances. Living at the mercy of other people does not feel good, especially when you know you are unwanted. Waiting for God to tell you what to do next, feeling like he isn’t listening or he just left you on read is unsettling and sometimes causes your flesh to want to rise and be angry. I have definitely been there more than once here. FIghting my flesh daily, specifically fighting my old self so she does not rise up and cause more problems, because her mouth and her hands want blood.

But God! He won’t let me act up. Everything happens for a reason and he always has to remind me of that in situations like this. I am well aware of that fact, but it doesn’t make the situation easier. After the initial anger or confusion wears off, you have to take a step back and realize what it is God is trying to do. When I sat back and reevaluated the situation I knew full well what the Lord is trying to do, but it still made me angry. Every situation is for our edification. It is to stretch us to increase our capacity and our knowledge. It gives us the tools to better be able to help those he will send us to minister to. There is no testimony without a test and all. And I remember explicitly, not wanting to go to a therapist back in high school because they had not been through what I had been through. I wanted to talk to someone who had experienced the horrors I had and would not just regurgitate stuff to me out of a book, well not regurgitate everything out of a book. I wanted to know how to heal from it and move on in the natural and in the spiritual because I’ve said it before, I was angry with God for many years of my life. I had set a course for self-destruction, full steam ahead and even in my almost hatred of him, he still kept me. So many instances where I should have or could have been dead, but God! From alcoholism to promiscuity, I should have been dead. From trying to commit suicide to being caught in shoot-outs hanging with the wrong people, I should have been dead. But God!

I am ever grateful for his mercy on me. I would not change anything about what I’ve been through, because it made me a better person and it led me back into the arms of my Father which is all he wanted was for me to come back home. He wanted me to have a rich testimony to share with his people so they too would turn to him. He wanted me to be able to reach different people from all walks of life because of my experiences so they would turn back to him. I am thankful for the amount of trust he placed in me for this assignment. It’s not easy. Sometimes I hate it and want to give up, but I know it’s for his glory and to advance the kingdom. I know this is so that more of my brothers and sisters will be caught up in the second coming to meet our Lord and Savior when he returns.

So while I don’t like the situation, I understand. I also understand that the enemy will use those closest to us to throw us off. I know that the enemy will do everything in his power to keep you separated from those that you are supposed to be with. The enemy will use those around you to try and break you or get you to go back to your old self and your old habits. I rebuke that in the name of Jesus! I’m not going back, I’ve come too far. Now if you wanna stay there, go ahead, but I want what God has for me and that is far better than anything I could buy or make on my own. I’m looking to the hills, waiting on my Savior. He will do what he said he would do, even if it doesn’t look how I wanted it to look like, I know it will be better. So count it all joy, this is what he planned for you. You didn’t miss your opportunity. You haven’t wasted so much time. Nothing you did came as a surprise to God. He was already prepared for everything you would go through. He is always with you. Don’t try to do it yourself, give it to him and he will work it all out. Repent for the kingdom of God is at hand. He’s waiting for you.